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Not one single second....
Not one single second goes by that she is not on my mind, not one single second goes by that I do not feel my heart ache because I love her so much............
This really hit me hard when I took Ellie to get a bath on Tuesday. My friend took one look at her and I saw tears streaming down her face. Ellie is just not doing so well. It really hit me when my friend started crying, she is a hardcore "animal activist" and would do ANYTHING to help any and all animals in need. This lady is sooooooooooo strong and in the eleven years that I have known her I have NEVER seen her so sad. I really felt that she must know somthing that I didn't, that she must have some insight into Ellie's feelings that I wasn't understanding. We did not give her a bath because we really didn't feel she was up to it. I took her to the vet and one of the techs came out and gave Ellie an atiquan?? shot to help relieve any inflamation.
This is just so unbelievably hard. She is really my heart and soul. She is my life. I just want her to be okay. I want her so much not to hurt. She is such a strong soul, she has taught me so much over the years. I hope I am listening to her and doing everything that's right for her. I just want everyone to know how incredible she is and how much she has meant to me and how beautiful she made my life. If I had to go back I wouldn't change a single second of it.........not one single second!
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As a famous animal communicator friend affirms, "When it's their time, it JUST is. Regrets only bind them to the Earth plane".
I don't know which is more difficult, losing a dog after a short time or long time, as with my Casey (almost 17 yr). After so long, we just assume they will always be here. Then, experiencing the recent heartache of losing friends' not-even-one-yr-old-cocker-sweetheart or a a 6 y/o labrador to an invasive cancer.....sometimes knowing so many dogs can be devastating.
Dogs do not have the same concept of time that we do. All we can do is love, learn from and take care of them ~ even when they are not ours, as with my found mastiff, this wknd.
As the saying goes, "Dear Lord, please help me to be at least HALF the person my dog thinks that I am". (sending hugs) tina
288 days ago by TinaValant
Oh my gosh, how absolutely devastating. Yes when it starts to get to 'that time' the hurt seems to tear you apart. My Beagle lived to be 18, and tho everyone says how lucky I was to have her that long, in my mind it wasn't near long enough. Meg the Border went before her time, I wasn't ready, and Max was in so much pain, he wasn't a dog anymore, just an animal kept around cause we couldn't bear to lose him. We finally made the decision, when he let us know it was time, and he was in our arms as he went to sleep. I looked at the vet and said "he didn't go to sleep, he died'. I still ache for those dogs so much, sometimes I think my heart will explode. Friends who don't have dogs say you will get over it, get another dog, but we know that just isn't the case. We never get over it, we never forget. After over 20 years, my heart still aches for my Bambi and the others. Love is never 'replaced'. The love we have for each of these precious children is complete and non transferable. It is theirs alone, just as the love they have for us is.
I don't know you, my friend, but I ache for the heartache you are feeling. I hold you in my heart and keep you in my thoughts. I wish there was something magical I could say, but I know nothing will help.
God Bless
Sandi & Monty
350 days ago by Monty
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